baby scan!!

so yesterday, i saw the baby!!!
first it looked abit like a potato, but then we could see the legs and arms waving, we could even see a lil nose!!
saw the heart beating, was about the size of a pea, omer kept looking and looking and smiling at me.

omer really is the coolest, but then again, he did say at least it was not his tummy.

the gelly wasnt so bad, was soooo nice to lie back and relax.

(i have put arrows identifing what it all is, after my mum said it looked like a tea cup and saucer)

full time job

as i am preggers, i am getting up late, and watching cartoons. i have found that thunderbirds comes on on channel 2.
but its a really creepy tv program. the strings dont bother me but everytime the puppets get something using there hands, u see human hands! and they gross and hairy. which really creepy cus they have no hair on their arms.

being pregnant is not easy. just going to the tiolet is a full time job, and i know cus i vist it every 20min.

today for breakfast i had scrambled egg with bread, and chocolate buttons.

yesterday i had a accident with my desk office chair, it hit my foot and cut it in a V shape. which really hurts. lots of blood escaped too.

for people who want to know how far i am in my pregnancy, its 3 months and one week.

Honeymooneness :) :)

right, so its a week after the wedding. and its sooooo relaxing, i feel almost too relaxed.
got the wedding video yesterday, which we watched and laughed at all the funny bits, and commented on how we looked.
the photos we have seen kinda, but we not picked the ones we like..my bounquet is dieing now and i want to wear my wedding dress every day!
i will put the photos on fickr, as soon as i get them.

last night i had a really strange dream, me, my family (including my grandparents and uncle's family) and the dysons, and me and omer were in this like holiday resort, which was half sebmerged by water cus of global warming? and we were all wearing our wedding clothes, and fighting? i had this argument with my uncles wife about my underwear?? she said it wasnt weddingey, and i said omg you never happy. and she was shouting in french. then i like run off in tears, and omer is like "2 pregnant people should not be left alone" and everyone fighting about something, and my uncles wife is chasing me and then i wake up as omer sticks his elbow in my face.

i was like right....

today omer taking me to see a movie, and i really really excited cus we not been for ages, and i hope theres tiolets nearby, and we can have popcorn and butter.

incident in the tiolets

so today i was sick once. which is becoming the norm.
so i with the dysons* all day wich was fun, and we go tescos, and then to the loo's..
and while i was in there, Mary asked over the wall

"sarah, what you doing?"

"i'm on the internet chatting"

"really?"

"no, im peeing..you?"

Crackers..

feel like eating and munching on crackers... those jacob cream crackers.. and baked beans with chips!

im a weetabix

latly i have been feeling a mixture of emotions aswell as Anger. ahem..
most people are like aww congrats Hug, what u want as gift. now these are the things to stay to me.
other people are saying "thats no excuse to be ill" or "just beacuse ur pregnant dosent mean other people have to be nice" or " stop pretending you not got a bump yet" now if u say these things i will show ANGER. now beacuse one of those persons was a family member i was nice. but when a saucepan falls on his head i wont feel sorry.

otherwise wedding plans still happening. FUN. NOT. dont think i can deal with it anymore, want it to be the wedding day already!

stupid cake stuff!

ok so we getting married (registered) in 17 days, and the cake lady is showing me attitude cus i forgot the appointment, and being sick is not a valid excuse aperently. then i went to the hair lady and she told me i was ugly cus i was not wearing make up. comon i been sick this morning! give me a break! so i just start crying and she is like oh tut tut. i going to do something evil like give birth in her shop to show her! mwa ha ha or teach the kid to scream whenever we see her mwa ha ha..

things i cant eat anymore

spring oniouns
chocolate
yogurt
cream chease or fromage fraie or cottage chease
pringles
tea
curry's
fish - even tuna sandwiches!
strawberries
blueberries
ketchup
fried eggs
pancakes

Curious George

ok curious george is the best the cutest film ever!
today i had 2 really good meals, and didn't feel sick!! so i had weetabix with fresh strawberry and blueberries with milk and double cream YUM then at lunch i had baked potato with fromage frias and chopped spring onioun, with crinkly cabbage and grated chease. YUM YUM
was the best!!

also on another note, this morning i was reminded why not to eat a entire tin of baked beans...

Mothercare

Saw a pushchair in mothercare for 400 pounds! crazy man. I could buy a really really old car with that. The have the most comftable maternity wear though, i felt like i was wearing a cloud or cotten or something nice and soft..
Had more strawberries today. Also had craving for baked beans on toast, I had 3 slices. Was beutiful, just never really appriated it before. Think I going loony.
I watched Dr Who - Doomsday, and was crying, cant belive Rose gone. :'(
Think I ganna go watch Curious George again.

Did not go to church today.

yup.. i did not go to church today. felt kinda weird. but since everyone seems to be gossiping about my good news, and i got morning sickness, i think i allowed on sunday off.
didnt, do much today, ate, went to the shops, and watched the match.. ITALY WON!! i was so surprised, thought france would.
I support argentina, so it not really matter who won, but i think what that italian guy said to Zidane was out of order.
I got my strawberries today, and that is all i ate today, feel like another box though..

Strawberries

so today i told my mum, i think she took it quite well.

met my urdu/cooking teacher today, and she preggers too! 6 months though, she really supportive, and think will be a good friend.
she made lamb and potato curry it was yum yum yummy and freash roti mmm :)
then went to babysit my friend, and watched mrs doubtfire, and zathura.

STRAWBERRIES STRAWBERRIES I NEED STRAWBERRIES NOW!!!!!! ergh, cant get them out of my mind... with cream...or with suger on top..all heaped up.. wish i was born in a strawberry field..

Its been a week!

so its been a week of listening to me ramble on..

Today it was nice, meaning not hot. but grey clouds looming over my head, which ment rain. and i went to town in a T-shirt, taking a risk yup. met my hubby up, now we were supposed to go shopping for me (late birthday gift) but instead i bought my hub a suit of great exspense, but he does look dashing in it so i guess its ok.
I did go and try on some jeans (as mine dont fit) and i couldnt find a pair that fit in the right place, does that make sense?

also today, i found out i 6 weeks preggers, and the babe due in march the 5th.

Munchies

went to the docs today, after she called me in, waited 2 hours and then found out there was a typing error made and i didnt need to be in. what a waste. after that i went to tescos and stocked up on green things and fruit. then i was just shlomped out, just needed to sleep, got on the bus and said "a pound to tescos" the driver was like "er you here already" duh i feel like a womble today.

i had bad attack of the munchies at about 2, i went for a walk and took a tupe of pringles and some fruit juice with me, half-way down the road the pringles tube was half full, or half empty. so i tried to stop but i couldn't.. at the end of the road there was 10 pringles left.

everybody seems to be in a mood, and snapping. maybe its the heat, or its cus its a thursday. and when they snap i just start crying. stupid hormouns.

Dreams

Had a really strange dream, I was in london, in my pjarmas? and heavly pregnant, and I was searching for mothercare so I could buy some sutible clothes, but all I found was marks and spencers and a dodgy kebab shop. So I pick m&s and there a shit load of steep stairs going up, like 7 floors, and no lifts? I was like omg how am I ganna do this.. and everyone was pushing me to get through and I felt like I was going to fall....and no one is helping me? so I yelling out "if I die my baby will die too and I will haunt you" and everyone is like "so what?" and I finaly get to m&s and theres these beds and i get in and fall asleep. It was the best sleep I have had in a dream while sleeping.

happy birthday to me

today is my birthday!!
wooooheeeoo!!...

when i woke up i didnt even remember it was my birthday, i just saw my hubby's smiley face looking at me, and then i knew.
i really do have the best husband.

so today i spent 20 min looking at my stomach wondering if it is really there, staring so hard that im sure i saw my tummy move.....wait that was proberly me breathing.

i have the best husband in the world!

he really is the best, so supportive, understanding and always funny.

anyway on another note, found this on the net,

God showed ... a little thing the size of a hazelnut in the palm of my hand; and it was as round as a ball. I looked on it with the eye of my understanding and thought what may this be? And I was answered thus: It is all that is made. I marveled how it could last ;for I thought it might disappear altogether it was so little. And I was answered in my understanding It will last forever for God loves it and so everything that has being has the love of God...from A Revelation of Love by Julian of Norwich.

and this one too:

A man madly in love with his beloved went to knock at her door. Through the closed door, she asked:'Who is there?'
He answered:'It's me!'
She said: 'There is no room for both you and me in the same house.'

Upon hearing this, the man left and went to the desert where he spent his time in meditation. Some years later, he came back and knocked at her door again. The voice of his beloved asked: 'Who is there?'
He answered: 'It is yourself!'

And the door opened.

From Muhyi al-Din Ibn 'Arabi (1165-1240)

Things my mom forgot to tell me

10am:

when i was a teen, my mum repetedly had the conversation of not having kids at young age as this would ruin my life.

what she should have said is, that when you are pregnant you get killing stomach cramps that wake you in the night, you feel sick, needing to pee every 5 min, lightheaded, dizzy and constipated.
and there is nothing you can do about it! no painkillers allowed!!

there is one small bonus. free dental care.

******
5pm:

i feel very deepressed today. feel like crying. cant sleep beacuse i worry and then feel sick.

******
now:

had a talk with my hub, feel bit better. tommoro is my birthday, but it not feel like it. feels like i have aged alot in these past few days.
worked out today that the babe is due in April. also relised that i will be pregnant in winter, and people might mistake me for a snowman.

always need to pee!

last night i woke up at 1am (after nodding off at 10) and i needed to pee so bad, and guess what someone was in the tiolet. and taking time! then i couldnt sleep as i was panicing of future pains and birth. so i put tv on, but nothing on. then went on net and talking to my friend for an hour before i nod off again.

this morning i have peed 4 times since waking up at 8 to watch cartoons and pee. its very frustrating. also i have the need for dandilion and burdock soda and roast beef and bannanas. also i cant stand the smell of mint toothpaste or the cleaning fluid for the loo. makes me feel nausas. (sick) (wanting to be sick) i feel weak constantly sleepy and almost like i have flu.

and its only day 2.

tv advert

was watching tv..

and this advert comes on with this guy cooking sausges, and they look really nice, and theres this song playing, with this lady singing "when will i see them again" then after a min or two it reads, "you will if you dont cook them properly".

nice innit..